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Unveiling the Depths of the troubled mind: The Powerful Message Behind 'The Heads' - Sculptural Oil Paintings that explore seven Mental Health conditions.

Updated: Nov 20


"It's heartening to see Welsh artist Julia O'Sullivan using her platform to shed light on important issues like mental health through her "Heads" collection of sculptures. In today's challenging times, with rising prices and increased stressors, mental health conditions can affect many individuals, making awareness and support more critical than ever.


Julia's dedication to raising awareness about mental health and providing resources for those in need is commendable. Recommending the NHS 111 line as a resource for support and guidance is valuable, as they offer professional assistance and advice for coping with mental health challenges.


Additionally, providing links to helpful websites demonstrates Julia's commitment to offering practical support to individuals struggling with mental health issues. These resources can provide information, coping strategies, and access to further assistance, helping individuals navigate their mental health journey with greater resilience and understanding.


By combining art with advocacy, Julia O'Sullivan's work serves as a beacon of hope and understanding, offering both artistic inspiration and practical support for those affected by mental health conditions. It's a testament to the power of creativity and compassion in fostering a more supportive and inclusive society."

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Introducing 'The Heads' - The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex

When I began work on 'The Heads', I wasn’t just creating art—I was trying to tell stories. These weren’t my stories, though I’ve certainly wrestled with my own mental health at times. Instead, I wanted to capture the essence of experiences shared by so many, often in silence. Each sculpture in this series, each oil-painted head, is my attempt to give form to the invisible battles that millions face every day.


The process was deeply personal, yet also communal. I immersed myself in research—reading, listening, and speaking with people who live with these conditions. I wanted each sculpture to be authentic, to reflect not only the pain but also the strength, the complexity, the humanity. These weren’t abstract conditions for me; they were lived experiences, messy and raw. Translating that into form and colour was both a challenge and a responsibility I took seriously.


Each of the seven heads carries its own emotional weight. Anxiety, for example, became a tangled mass of jagged, overlapping textures, painted in sharp contrasts to convey its unrelenting urgency. Dementia, by contrast, demanded a heaviness, a sinking quality in its shape and hues, as if the very sculpture were being pulled down by gravity. And yet, even within the struggles, I worked to weave in elements of beauty and resilience. Mental health is never one-dimensional; it’s a spectrum of emotions and experiences, and I wanted that complexity to come through in every piece.


Creating this series was draining at times. There were moments when I had to step away, overwhelmed by the intensity of what I was trying to capture. But there was also an incredible sense of purpose. I could see these pieces becoming a bridge—an invitation for others to look beyond stereotypes, to see the person behind the condition. It was about fostering connection, about building empathy in a world that so often feels disconnected and indifferent.


Seeing people interact with the sculptures, is both humbling and affirming. I watch as viewers pause, as they lean in, as they share quiet words with each other. Some cry. Some nod in recognition. This is why I created The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex—to give people the space to feel, to reflect, to understand, and, hopefully, to talk about mental health with more compassion and openness. They are real, they are raw.


This series isn’t about finding neat solutions or offering answers. It’s about shining a light on the struggles we so often push into the shadows. If these sculptures help even one person feel seen or spark a conversation that might not have happened otherwise, then I’ve done what I set out to do.


Depression

Depression is a facet of life that I've grown intimately familiar with, particularly through the lens of my husband's lifelong struggle with this condition. Witnessing his journey has been a profound and often challenging experience, one that has tested our resilience and strength as a couple.


Navigating the complexities of depression is no small feat. It's a relentless battle that can take a toll on both the individual and those closest to them. Despite the facade of normalcy that may be maintained, inner turmoil and anguish can remain hidden from the outside world.


Over the years, I've come to appreciate the immense strength and resilience my husband possesses, despite the weight of his condition. He has been a steadfast pillar of support for me, just as I have been for him. It's a powerful reminder of the inherent value we each possess, even in the face of mental health challenges.


In moments of darkness, it's essential to recognise and honour the intrinsic worth that resides within us all. Despite the trials and tribulations we may face, our capacity for resilience and compassion endures, serving as a beacon of hope in the midst of adversity.


The Depression sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

The first two heads in my 'Heads' collection were designed to offer a visceral look into the hidden world of depression. These sculptures are deeply personal for me—not because they reflect my own struggles, but because they embody what so many people endure silently. Depression is often invisible to the outside world, hidden behind masks and facades, and I wanted to bring that contrast to life.


The first head depicts what many might see on the surface: a carefully constructed mask of normalcy. This mask is polished, serene, and almost inviting. It represents the "everything's fine" face that so many wear to protect themselves from judgement, misunderstanding, or even pity. But behind that facade is a chasm of despair. I sculpted the interior to feel oppressive, with dark, chaotic textures that suggest a storm constantly brewing. It’s as though the beauty and light that once defined the person have been swallowed whole by the black hole of depression. That visual dichotomy—the calm exterior and the turbulent interior—is at the heart of what this sculpture seeks to communicate: that what we see is rarely the full story.


The second head delves even deeper into the mental prison created by depression. It’s a representation of the mind within the mind—a caged being trapped inside the confines of the first head. The bars of the cage are deliberately uneven and jagged, illustrating how depression isn’t a tidy, logical condition. It distorts everything, turning simple thoughts into inescapable mazes. There’s a longing for freedom here, a desperate reach for light and clarity, but the bars hold firm. The cage isn’t just restrictive; it’s suffocating, a relentless reminder that depression doesn’t just confine—it isolates and consumes.


Through these pieces, I wanted to highlight the pervasive nature of depression and its ability to touch every corner of a person’s life. It doesn’t just affect the individual; it ripples outward, straining relationships, derailing dreams, and sapping the joy from daily existence. And yet, depression often remains unseen, dismissed, or misunderstood—a silent shadow that is all the more insidious for its invisibility.


My hope with these sculptures is to foster empathy. If someone recognises themselves in these pieces, I want them to feel seen and understood. If someone recognises a loved one, I hope it inspires them to offer support—not with solutions, but with presence, patience, and compassion. Depression isn’t something you fix; it’s something you walk through, and having someone to walk alongside can make all the difference.


Ultimately, these heads are about connection. They remind us that even in the darkest storms, we are not alone. There is always light to be found, even if it’s reflected in the care and kindness of others. And that willingness to listen, to see beyond the mask, and to sit with someone in their pain—that is love in its most powerful, transformative form.


A sculpted head symbolising depression, featuring a smooth, serene mask on the exterior, representing the facade of normalcy. Behind the mask, the interior reveals dark, chaotic textures resembling a storm, symbolising the turmoil of despair hidden within. The contrasting layers evoke the isolation and emotional weight of living with depression.
Depression - a tribute


Dementia


Dementia is a cruel affliction that has left its mark on my family, particularly through the journey of my late father, who battled frontal lobe dementia.


Watching my father grapple with this relentless illness inspired me to embark on a deeply personal artistic endeavour—a series of heads that sought to capture the essence of his struggle. However, the geographical distance between us during his decline added another layer of heartache to an already painful situation.


The Dementia sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

When I created this piece, my heart was heavy with the stories I’d heard from families and caregivers—stories of love and loss, of watching someone they cherished slowly slip away. This sculpture, part of The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex, is my attempt to capture the essence of that devastating journey, where the mind regresses to a childlike state, and the vibrant colours of personality fade, one by one, into muted tones.


The head’s surface is intentionally fragmented, with smooth areas giving way to rough, eroded sections. These cracks represent the holes in memory, the faltering of rational thought, and the disintegration of identity. The draining colour was a deliberate choice; it begins with rich, vibrant hues near the base—symbolising the fullness of life—and gradually fades into grey, reflecting the slow, inexorable fading of self. It’s a visual metaphor for the months and years over which dementia works its cruel magic.


One of the hardest truths to express was the transformation in behaviour—how the loss of inhibitions can reveal a raw, unfiltered version of a person that might feel alien to those who love them. I painted areas of the sculpture with jagged, almost chaotic strokes, breaking the flow of the smoother surfaces, to convey this unsettling change. It was important to me to reflect not only on the internal struggle but also on the external challenges faced by loved ones as they reconcile these changes with their memories of whom this person once was.


This piece isn’t just about the person suffering from dementia—it’s also about those who care for them. The erosion of personality isn’t just a loss for the individual; it’s a shared grief, an ache that spreads through families and friends. I wanted the sculpture to carry that weight, to act as both a tribute and a call for empathy.


I hope this work speaks to viewers on multiple levels. For those who’ve lived this reality, I want them to feel seen, to know their pain and effort are recognised. For those who haven’t, I hope it sparks a deeper understanding of the profound human cost of these conditions and the importance of compassion and support. Above all, I wanted to remind people that even as the mind erodes, the person—their essence, their worth—is still there, deserving of dignity and love.



 A sculpted head symbolising dementia, with a fragmented and hollowed appearance. The exterior fades from vibrant details to muted tones, representing the gradual loss of personality and memory. Cracks and voids suggest the erosion of consciousness, while childlike elements evoke a regression to earlier stages of life. The piece captures the heartbreak of a fading identity and the profound impact of dementia on both the individual and their loved ones.
Dementia - a tribute


Anxiety


Anxiety is a pervasive presence in my life, intimately intertwined with the experiences of friends and family who grapple with its effects in varying degrees. From mild manifestations to debilitating episodes, I've witnessed firsthand the profound impact this condition can have on individuals.


The weight of anxiety is palpable, its grip relentless and suffocating for those who endure it. It's a complex interplay of mental and physical symptoms that can overwhelm even the strongest amongst us. Witnessing loved ones navigate this labyrinth of fear and uncertainty is a heartrending experience, one that underscores the profound toll anxiety can be exact on its victims.


The Anxiety sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

When I created the anxiety head for The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex, I wanted it to feel as if the viewer were stepping into the overwhelming, often contradictory world of anxiety. Anxiety is not one thing—it’s a collision of order and chaos, logic and emotion, a mind desperate for control yet consumed by spiralling thoughts. I needed the sculpture to reflect that duality in every detail.


The mathematical equations etched into the surface were my way of representing the anxious mind’s craving for structure. To me, equations symbolise the perfect order of the universe, a place where everything fits, every variable accounted for. But juxtaposing this precision are the delicate, chaotic butterflies—a nod to Chaos Theory. They flutter across the sculpture, suggesting how even the smallest thought can spiral into an uncontrollable storm, a hallmark of anxiety. Together, these elements capture the push and pull between wanting control and feeling utterly consumed by chaos.


The copper rods are deeply personal to the experience of anxiety. Each phrase etched into them carries layers of meaning, just as anxious thoughts do. The words might seem innocuous at first glance, but to an anxious mind, they’re fuel for overanalysis. “Did I say the wrong thing?” “Am I enough?” “What if…?” These rods become a physical manifestation of how anxiety warps and magnifies the everyday, turning fleeting worries into insurmountable fears.


Beneath the head lies the spiral of words, twisting downward, relentless and unavoidable. I wanted it to mirror the way anxious thoughts can feel like a vortex, pulling you in, leaving you disoriented and trapped. And inside the head itself—the rabbit hole. This was the hardest part to create, not because of its complexity, but because it struck so close to home. It’s a dense web of emotions, phrases, and racing thoughts, all jumbled together, impossible to untangle. It’s the part of anxiety that feels inescapable, like you’re always on the edge of falling deeper.


This sculpture isn’t just about anxiety—it’s about making the invisible visible. Anxiety can be a silent, internal battle, one that others may never notice or understand. I wanted to give that experience a voice, a form that people could see, touch, and feel. My hope is that it not only resonates with those who know this struggle but also sparks empathy in those who don’t.

Through this piece, I want to remind people that anxiety is not a weakness. It’s a reality, one that millions navigate every day. And while it can be overwhelming, understanding and compassion—both from within and from others—are powerful tools for finding light amid the chaos.

 A sculpted head symbolising anxiety, adorned with intricate details. The exterior features swirling mathematical equations and chaotic butterflies, representing the tension between order and chaos. Copper rods etched with ambiguous phrases protrude, symbolising overanalyzed thoughts, while a spiral of tangled words encircles the base, illustrating overwhelming mental turmoil. Inside, a carved rabbit hole filled with fragmented phrases vividly depicts the rapid-fire emotions and racing thoughts of an anxious mind.
Anxiety - a tribute


Addiction


Addiction is a universal struggle that touches the lives of many, myself included. While I count myself fortunate to grapple only with bad habits, I've borne witness to the devastating effects of severe addiction in others—effects that can lead to self-destruction and, tragically, even death.


What makes addiction particularly insidious is its propensity to intertwine with other mental illnesses, forming a complex web of challenges that can feel impossible to untangle. It's a harrowing journey for those ensnared in its grasp, one marked by profound suffering and anguish.


The addiction sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

The addiction head in The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex was one of the most emotionally demanding pieces I created. Addiction is a force that consumes from the inside out, and I wanted this sculpture to be an unflinching portrayal of its relentless grip—both the inner torment and the external chains that bind those who suffer from it.


The claws pulling downward across the surface of the head are unmistakable. They represent the way addiction drags a person deeper, even as they fight to rise. These aren’t gentle hands but jagged, merciless claws, digging into the skin and psyche, a visual metaphor for how addiction can feel like a force beyond one’s control, tearing at their sense of self and autonomy. The dark hues at the bottom of the head deepen as they descend, reflecting the descent into the illness's depths.


Inside the head, the never-ending pathways were my attempt to capture the exhausting, cyclical nature of addiction. These pathways are bathed in a faint glow, suggesting hope—a light at the end of the tunnel—but no matter how far one walks, they never quite reach it. It’s a tormenting paradox, the simultaneous desire to escape and the feeling of being forever out of reach of freedom. The inside of the head feels infinite, a maze without an exit, symbolising the psychological labyrinth many face in their struggle.


The chains rooting the sculpture to its base were a critical element for me. They represent the external realities of addiction—stigma, shame, and the societal and systemic barriers that often keep individuals trapped. The rusted, heavy links convey both the weight of the illness and the barriers to recovery. They’re not merely visual but tactile, meant to evoke the oppressive reality of being shackled by something you can’t simply will yourself out of.


Creating this piece was as much about raising awareness as it was about honouring the humanity of those who struggle with addiction. It’s easy to reduce addiction to its outward effects, to judge from a place of misunderstanding. But I wanted viewers to step into the internal world of someone trapped by it—to feel the despair, the yearning, and the complexity of the battle.


Addiction isn’t just about substances or behaviours; it’s about pain, trauma, and an often desperate attempt to fill a void or escape a pain. Through this sculpture, I hope to challenge perceptions, to replace judgement with empathy, and to remind viewers of the urgent need for compassionate support and effective resources.


This head, like all in the collection, is ultimately about connection. I want it to say to anyone struggling with addiction: I see you. Your battle is real, and you are not alone. For everyone else, I hope it’s a call to action—to advocate for understanding and to support those who are fighting their way toward the light.


A sculpted head symbolising addiction, with haunting imagery of claw-like forms dragging it downward, representing the relentless grip of the condition. Chains anchor the head to its base, symbolising entrapment and the inability to break free. Inside, an intricate maze of never-ending pathways leads toward a distant light, depicting the cyclical and elusive struggle for recovery. The piece evokes the despair and confinement experienced by those battling addiction.
Addiction - a tribute


Bipolar


Bipolar disorder is a condition that, while not directly impacting my own life, has left an indelible mark on the lives of those in my extended family. Through their accounts, I've gained insight into the profound challenges faced by individuals navigating this complex illness in its various forms and degrees.


In an effort to better understand and empathise with those affected, I immersed myself in blogs, videos, and personal narratives shared by individuals living with bipolar disorder. Their firsthand experiences served as a wellspring of inspiration, informing my artistic representation of this often misunderstood condition.


Despite not having a personal connection, I felt compelled to shed light on bipolar disorder as part of my collection. It's a condition characterised by its unpredictability and the harsh realities of medication management, elements that underscore the gravity of the challenges faced by those living with it.

The Bipolar sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

When I conceptualised the bipolar heads for The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex, I knew the piece needed to reflect not just the extremes of mood but the exhausting oscillation between them. Bipolar disorder isn’t just about mania or depression in isolation—it’s the relentless push and pull, the constant battle for equilibrium in a world that shifts beneath your feet.


The manic head bursts with vibrant, almost overwhelming energy. I drew inspiration from the chaos and allure of a circus—bright lights, bold patterns, and a sense of wild exhilaration. Mania often carries that intoxicating rush, a feeling of invincibility or boundless creativity, but it’s also overwhelming and chaotic. I wanted this head to almost leap off the pedestal, demanding attention, much like the manic energy that can overtake a person. Its exaggerated features, glowing eyes, and garish colours are meant to evoke both the excitement and the volatility of this state.


The depressive head, in stark contrast, is a shadow of its counterpart. It mirrors the manic head but in a fractured, muted, and hollow way, as though the light has been drained from it. The same patterns exist, but they’re broken, distorted, and subdued, symbolising how depression can feel like a mirror image of joy—recognisable but utterly devoid of life. The downward gaze of this head reflects the weight of despair, the heaviness that drags everything inward, making the world feel impossibly small.


The dynamic between the two heads was critical to the piece. I chose to stack them in a grotesque, intertwined manner to represent the constant tug-of-war that defines bipolar disorder. The "push me, pull you" effect—one head striving upward, full of energy, while the other drags downward in despair—illustrates the way these states fight for dominance within the same mind. It’s not a peaceful coexistence but a jarring, sometimes violent, interplay that can leave individuals feeling out of control or fragmented.


As viewers step closer, I hope they notice the fine details: the cracks that run through both heads, the subtle connections that bind them. These elements are a reminder that mania and depression aren’t entirely separate—they’re two sides of the same coin, each influencing and feeding into the other.


Through this piece, I wanted to offer more than just a visual representation of bipolar disorder; I wanted to evoke its emotional reality. It’s a condition that’s as complex as the people who live with it, and I hope this sculpture encourages viewers to move beyond simplistic narratives of highs and lows. It’s about fostering understanding, compassion, and, most importantly, recognition of the strength it takes to navigate life with bipolar disorder.


For those who see themselves in these heads, I hope they feel seen. For others, I hope it’s an invitation to learn, to empathise, and to advocate for better support and treatment for those grappling with this unpredictable and often misunderstood condition.


A sculpted head symbolising bipolar disorder, featuring two contrasting faces stacked one atop the other. The top face, vibrant and circus-like, represents the manic phase, bursting with energy and chaotic colours. The lower face, darkened and fragmented, mirrors the manic imagery but appears broken, symbolising the depressive phase. The juxtaposition captures the extreme highs and lows of bipolar disorder, with the dynamic "push me, pull you" arrangement emphasising the internal tug-of-war between these opposing states.
Bipolar - a tribute


Schizophrenia


Schizophrenia is a condition that I approached with limited direct exposure, yet felt compelled to include in my series. Recognising its complexity and the pervasive misunderstandings surrounding it, I delved into research to better comprehend its nuances and implications.


Despite lacking personal connections, I discovered that schizophrenia is more prevalent than commonly perceived, underscoring the importance of raising awareness and understanding. While it can manifest in severe forms for some, many individuals find ways to manage the condition effectively with proper support and treatment.


As with other mental illnesses, schizophrenia exists along a spectrum, encompassing both mild and severe manifestations. It's a reminder that each person's journey is unique, and that empathy and education are essential in fostering a more compassionate and informed society.


The Schizophrenia sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

When I set out to create the sculpture depicting schizophrenia for The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex, I knew it had to embody the raw, disorienting experience of living with this illness. Schizophrenia is not a singular experience—it’s fragmented, surreal, and often terrifying. It’s a world where reality can feel distorted, where the boundaries between what’s real and what’s imagined blur, and the voices in one’s mind can drown out everything else. I wanted this piece to encapsulate that chaotic inner world and the profound struggle for control.


The outside of the head becomes a canvas for the visual hallucinations that so many with schizophrenia experience. I used sharp, jarring shapes and distorted images, as though the world itself is bending and breaking. These hallucinations are not just odd—they’re often terrifying, invasive, and completely out of the person’s control. I wanted the images to almost push outward, as if they were fighting to break free from the confines of the head. There’s an overwhelming sense of confusion and displacement in these visual elements, which I hope conveys the daily battle against an altered perception of reality.


Inside the head, I focused on auditory hallucinations—voices that speak in an unrelenting, tormenting manner. I used layered, fragmented words that seemed to be in constant motion, swirling in the space inside the sculpture. These words are meant to evoke the sensation of multiple voices crowding the mind—each one different, yet all invasive. The sound, the repetition, and the lack of escape is something that can erode a person’s sense of self, and I wanted to reflect that by creating a claustrophobic, overwhelming environment inside the head.


For me, this piece holds a personal weight. I’ve had my own experiences with hallucinations—though not as severe as those many people with schizophrenia endure. I’ve had moments where reality felt like it was slipping away, where it felt impossible to trust what I was seeing or hearing. That experience gave me a deeper empathy and understanding when it came to portraying this condition. It wasn’t just about representing a mental illness; it was about trying to capture the internal chaos and the courage it takes to live with it every single day.


Through this sculpture, I hope to offer a glimpse into the profound disorientation that schizophrenia can cause. But I also want to emphasise the strength of those who live with it. There is no single narrative of schizophrenia; it’s as unique as the individuals who face it. My intention was to create a piece that offers more than just an artistic representation of the conditions. I wanted it to spark empathy, to encourage a deeper understanding, and to challenge the stigma that surrounds mental health disorders like schizophrenia.


More than anything, I want this piece to serve as a reminder: people living with schizophrenia, and all mental health conditions, need compassion and support. They need to be seen for the resilience they carry, not just the illness they face. Through art, I hope to open a conversation about mental illness that is rooted in understanding, and that ultimately leads to more resources, care, and dignity for those who struggle in silence.


A sculpted head symbolising schizophrenia, with chaotic imagery on the exterior representing visual hallucinations. The distorted and surreal designs evoke the disorienting and often frightening perceptions experienced by individuals with the condition. Inside, layered and fragmented words swirl in a claustrophobic space, symbolising auditory hallucinations and the relentless, tormenting voices. The piece captures the inner turmoil, confusion, and emotional weight of living with schizophrenia.
Schizophrenia - a tribute


Dissociative Identity Disorder


Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder) is a deeply troubling condition often stemming from experiences of mistreatment or abuse. It's a stark reminder of the profound impact that trauma can have on the human psyche, leaving lasting scars that manifest in complex and often debilitating ways.


The realisation that such suffering is inflicted upon individuals by others is both sobering and deeply disheartening. No one should have to endure the anguish and turmoil that accompanies Dissociative Identity Disorder, and yet far too many do.


It's imperative that we as a society work to foster environments of safety and support, where individuals are shielded from the traumas that can precipitate such debilitating conditions. Only through collective empathy, understanding, and action can we hope to alleviate the suffering of those affected by Dissociative Identity Disorder and prevent its occurrence in future generations.


The Dissociative Identity Disorder sculpture by Julia O'Sullivan

When I created the sculpture representing Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) for The Disorderly Demise of the Cerebral Cortex, I wanted to convey the profound fragmentation and complexity of this condition. DID is not just about multiple personalities—it’s about survival. It’s about how the mind, in the face of trauma, creates different personas as a way to cope, protect, and navigate a world that feels too overwhelming. My aim was to humanise the experience, to invite viewers into the internal world of someone living with DID, and to challenge the misunderstandings and stigma that surround it.


The various personalities in the sculpture were crucial in telling that story. Each one—whether the warrior, the hippy, the slut, the goth, or the small child—represents a different facet of the individual’s internal world. These personas may seem disparate, even contradictory, but that’s the point. They each serve a purpose in the survival of the person. The warrior, strong and unyielding, might rise to protect the person from harm. The hippy, carefree and loving, may represent a longing for peace and escape. The slut could reflect an attempt to reclaim control or comfort in an often hostile world. The goth, dark and withdrawn, may hold the pain and suffering that words cannot describe. And the small child—innocent, vulnerable, and raw—serves as a reminder of the trauma at the heart of this condition. That child is often the part of the person that is most exposed to harm, the part that retains the emotional scars of abuse and neglect.


The fragmented nature of the sculpture was essential to illustrating the disconnection that people with DID may feel. The personalities are not presented as a harmonious whole but as separate, disjointed figures. This fragmentation is both a coping mechanism and a source of pain. Each persona may be locked in its own reality, trying to protect the individual in different ways, but they cannot fully integrate or heal without understanding the whole self.

One of the most important aspects of DID, and the one I wanted to emphasise, is the trauma that often underlies its development. The abuse and adversity depicted within the mind of the sculpture—seen in the visual distortions and fractured pieces of the personas—are integral to understanding how DID came into being. Trauma doesn’t just impact the body; it alters the psyche in ways that are complex and often difficult to grasp. By showing this, I wanted to bring attention to the need for trauma-informed care and treatment, something that goes beyond simply managing the symptoms and instead seeks to understand and heal the roots of the condition.


As Mental Health Awareness Week approaches, I hope this piece encourages viewers to expand their understanding of mental illness, especially conditions that are less widely understood, like DID. Mental illness is not a simple, one-size-fits-all narrative. It’s nuanced and deeply personal. By stepping into the shoes of others through art, we can begin to appreciate the emotional weight that comes with living with such a condition. We can learn to approach these experiences with empathy, patience, and a commitment to supporting others in their journey.


The most important thing I hope viewers take from this sculpture is a sense of compassion—both for the individuals living with DID and for themselves if they are facing their own struggles. Trauma and mental health challenges are not weaknesses; they are part of the human experience. Through art, I hope to foster a society where all individuals, regardless of their mental health challenges, feel seen, heard, and supported.


 A sculpted head symbolising Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), featuring multiple distinct personas emerging from its form. Each persona is represented uniquely—a warrior, a hippy, a goth, a "slut," and a small child—depicting the fragmented and diverse identities within the individual. The child's persona, central and vulnerable, reflects the core innocence often shaped by trauma. Fractured textures and internal imagery convey the mental and emotional scars of abuse, highlighting the protective roles these identities play. The sculpture portrays the complexity, resilience, and pain associated with DID.
Dissociated Identity Disorder - a tribute

Julia O'Sullivan and loving someone with mental health problems.


Over three decades ago, I fell head over heels for an Irishman whose charm and intellect captured my heart from the start. His lively demeanour and sharp wit were irresistible, but beneath the surface lurked a shadow that would shape our journey together.


Initially, I failed to recognise the presence of this unseen companion, its insidious influence gradually taking its toll over the years. Slowly, almost imperceptibly, it began to chip away at my self-esteem and drain my positive energy, leaving me grappling with a sense of emptiness.


Our lives took a significant turn when, after eight years together, I discovered I was pregnant with our son. In a bid for a fresh start, we embarked on a journey to New Zealand, hoping for a reprieve from his affliction. However, the change of scenery failed to dispel the darkness that loomed over us.


Living with the unpredictability of his condition became a daily struggle, his emotional turmoil casting a shadow over our lives. Despite his best efforts, his mood swings often left me feeling adrift, uncertain of what each day would bring. It was a rollercoaster of emotions, akin to living with a ghost, his brooding presence permeating the surrounding air.


Following the birth of our daughter and a concerning encounter with his distant behaviour towards his visiting family from Ireland, I implored him to seek help. Reluctantly, he began taking medication—a small pill that would prove to be a catalyst for transformative change.


The difference was remarkable. With newfound confidence and vitality, he embraced life with a fervour I had never seen before. For the first time, he experienced a semblance of normalcy and happiness, a revelation that both uplifted and saddened me.


Despite his aversion to living with this condition, the medication provided much-needed relief, restoring a sense of equilibrium to our lives. However, a recent attempt to wean off the medication highlighted the enduring presence of his dark companion, necessitating a return to treatment.


Navigating the complexities of his illness has been a journey fraught with challenges, but it has also been a testament to our resilience and unwavering commitment to one another. Together, we confront his dark nature as a team, united in our resolve to overcome its grasp.


In coping with this condition, I've gleaned invaluable lessons along the way:

  • Firstly, it's crucial to remember that his illness is not a reflection of me personally.

  • Secondly, self-preservation is paramount. Prioritising my own well-being enables me to better support him through his struggles.

  • Communication is key, but it's essential to approach discussions with sensitivity and empathy, recognising that this is a battle we face together.

  • Seeking help is not a sign of weakness but a testament to our strength and determination to overcome adversity.

  • And finally, the notion of escaping to a distant land to evade our problems is a fallacy; true healing comes from within and through facing our challenges head-on.


As we continue to navigate this journey together, I am grateful for the strength and resilience it has instilled in me. Despite the trials we may face, I remain steadfast in my love and commitment, knowing that, together, we can weather any storm.


Julia O'Sullivan and the on going battles with the mental health hurdles of life.


Life's burdens can sometimes feel overwhelming, especially when we witness our loved ones struggling to cope. Recently, I found myself guiding my own son through a series of debilitating anxiety episodes as he grappled with the demands of his chemistry degree. Watching him endure panic attack after panic attack was heart-wrenching, yet it also spurred me to action.


In those moments, I had to strike a delicate balance between providing comfort and support while also empowering him to regain control. We worked together to slow the relentless torrent of thoughts racing through his mind, employing breathing techniques and mindfulness exercises to anchor him in the present moment.


Recognising that persistence on the same path was only exacerbating his distress, I encouraged him to explore alternative avenues. Drawing on the resilience ingrained in his DNA, I urged him to tap into his inner strength and tackle life's challenges head-on. With each setback, I reminded him that setbacks are merely stepping stones to growth and that he possesses the tenacity to overcome any obstacle.


In our quest to alleviate his anxiety, we explored various solutions, from over-the-counter remedies to alternative therapies. While conventional options proved ineffective, the introduction of CBD oil yielded promising results, offering him newfound relief and a renewed sense of control over his mental well-being.


As we navigate this journey together, I remain hopeful that each day brings him closer to a place of peace and equilibrium. And through it all, I remind him—and myself—that no matter the challenges we face, we possess the resilience and determination to emerge stronger on the other side.


Oil painting sculpture of a head depicting the mental health of Dementia by Julia O'Sullivan
Mental Health sculptural oil painting. This head depicts Dementia . By Julia O'Sullivan

Sculpted oil painted head depicting the mental illness of addiction.
Mental health sculptural oil painting, this painting depicts addiction. By Julia O'Sullivan

hieronymous Bosch style Sculpted oil painted head depicting the mental illness of anxiety
Mental Health sculptural oil painting, this one depicts anxiety. By Julia O'Sullivan

Francis bacon style. Sculpted oil painted head depicting the mental illness of schizophrenia
Mental Health sculptural oil painting, this one depicts schizophrenia by Julia O'Sullivan

Sculpted oil painted head depicting the mental illness of Depression
Mental Health sculptural oil painting , this one depicts Depression by Julia O'Sullivan


Sculpted oil painted head depicting the mental illness of Bipolar
Mental Health sculptural oil painting, this one depicts Bipolar by Julia O'Sullivan


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